In the most unlikely circumstance, I have been privileged to cross paths with an 86 year old man who feels a calling to share his story with overcoming what he attributes to be a spiritual battle with sex. He has requested to remain anonymous, but feels so strongly about this calling that if any man desired to converse with him due to an experience with this same struggle, he is willing to make himself available. If this is you, please feel free to submit a message to the following email address, GIRLSGTSEX@GMAIL.COM. Your email questions/concerns will be provided to him and replied to accordingly. Below is his story in his own words. ~V. Thompson
I know for a fact that I was in bondage to a pornography addiction. During this time in my life, Satan was in control. Satan gave me the exact words to say to get a woman to do whatever I wanted her to do for me. I learned how to manipulate women to do whatever I wanted as I viewed them as objects for my sole pleasure. I am now proud to say at 86 years old that I was saved at the age of 55 and I know that God has called me to share my story with young men so that they might avoid the lifestyle that I succumbed to live. Here is my story.
When I was 4 years old my father shot my mother and committed suicide. Consequently, after losing both of my parents, I was raised by my Grandmother. My Grandmother abused me and eventually placed me in an orphanage because I frequently ran away.
At age 18, a man at work gave me my first “dirty book”. Having never been to a church, being very angry at women and God, and not knowing love, I looked for love in sex. Satan told me, “the next woman you have sex with, will surely love you.” I got my first sex partner pregnant and had to marry her. She ran around and so we divorced. My second wife married me to get away from abuse.
I even chose an apparent happily married woman to seduce. Satan taught me what to say and what to do and so I lived two lives. At first it was exciting, but the lives and neglect of my two children, my wife, and my job became overwhelming.
My second wife and I divorced when the kids were grown. I then married one of the women I had seduced. She had sex with me to get even with her husband. Between marriages, I had a PO Box for correspondence with swingers, watching X-rated movies, and group sex. The need kept building…peeping Tom and stalking. If I hadn’t had a good job for years that I loved, I believe I could have gone into causing physical harm.
Every serial killer started on porn. At age 55, in deep depression and my third marriage failing, I gave up on life. My father’s suicide kept me from doing that, but I did consider pretending to be crazy to get away from what I had become.
Then a man led me to Christ, but didn’t follow up. The Holy Spirit came to me and said if I stayed in the marriage, He would find us a Christian counselor and a discipliner to help me exchange my old mind patterns for thoughts about Jesus, study the Bible, and truly love my wife. It took some time, but I believe I could never have been clean, and safe and sane without Christ, and a discipliner. I could have caught and given away many different diseases over the years and I thank Him for that protection. I am 86 now and I love Him so much because He forgave me so much and set me free to live again. I would be willing to do one-on-one mentoring to help bring any man away from that hell.