Today, October 13, 2016 marks the anniversary of many things.
Oct. 13, 2012 – My husband and I returned from our New York trip where we experienced our most memorable miscarriage and my best “God Please Clean My Room” reading.
October 13, 2014 – I shared our full testimony in a blog about our miscarriages & God’s promises fulfilled, 10 days after the birth of our son, Justice.
Read about it here: https://valencyathompson.wordpress.com/2014/10/13/our-little-mm-the-story-behind-baby-jets-red-onesie-hope-for-couples-who-desire-children/
It dawned on me recently that it is time to share the rest of our story. God blessed us with the precious gift of our daughter, Broughton Marie Thompson, 6 weeks and 1 day ago!
Yes, God gave us two. And if you happen to be waiting on a promise from God, it is my belief that God can and will do the same for you.
Trust me, I know firsthand that the waiting game is no fun. Especially when we are accustomed to being disappointed by fellow human beings, but it is important that we remember God’s Word tells us that God cannot lie (Numbers 23:19).
I don’t know, maybe we worry of looking foolish when we dare to believe in a prophecy from God being fulfilled. Or could it be that we have a problem relinquishing control because we wouldn’t dare trust someone else to do “it” (whatever it is you desire), even if that someone else is God.
Truth be told, someone is literally thinking, “yeah right, me trust in this God that I cannot see, touch, or hear to fix this thing for me? I’d have to be out of my mind.”
And see that’s just it, God does want to be visible, God does want you to feel God’s presence, and God wants you to hear when God speaks.
I dare ask, “but are you listening?” This is a very serious question. I came to the recent realization that God has answered everyone of my prayers (according to God’s divine will for my life) in God’s time (there’s that phrase we love to hate when in wait). So let me rephrase, God literally gives me what I ask for once I calm down. In other words, once I stop making an idol out of it.
Yes, as I gaze into my beautiful newborn’s eyes currently, I can distinctly recall when she felt like a dream deferred. Something I imagined. Yet, I grew to understand that her delay was so that God could get all of the Glory and not any person, not even my husband or myself. Not even those who prophesied about my daughter, not knowing I was carrying my son in my womb at the time.
And because I didn’t idolize any longer, I am able to cherish God’s gifts on those especially hard days when the newborn hollers while the toddler has a meltdown.
Because God created my husband and I, he knew at what time we would be well equipped to raise God’s children. Because God considers generations of people, God knew what time period (season) my children were to be born in to live their best lives according to God’s design. And contrary to popular belief, it wasn’t when we had the most money in our bank account or were the most “secure” according to human standards. Literally, it would be when we agreed to fully trust God, to walk by faith – as in pitch darkness while holding God’s hand, believing God wouldn’t drop us even if we were afraid the entire time.
Trust God. I’m praying for you. God loves you and God knows exactly what God is doing. Trust the process.
A Prayer for Those in “Wait”:
First, I thank you for all that I have; though it is difficult some days to trust you know what’s best for me through the countless tears I’ve cried while waiting on my promise from you to be fulfilled.
Dear God, I ask that you help me to process what you deem necessary as I strive to navigate my way through the pain I feel. I cannot see my way out of it at times so God help me believe! God heal me and heal my spouse. Comfort me and comfort my spouse. Show me what is practical to do as I wait on my spiritual breakthrough from you. Help me to be happy when others are seemingly blessed with what I’ve requested first and help me to know when to sit things out so I may properly grieve. Help me to rest in grief and allow it to do its thing in healthy ways.
Thank you for sending help. Thank you for your grace, your mercy, and your peace.
In Jesus’ name I pray,